Day 12

( Top to Bottom : Alvin and me with Veasna and Puthy at our sleeping area. Me, Puthy and Aisyah at the Playground. I am so missing these people.)

Last day, Sport's Day went well. I didn't share, i loved not to share.

Hint : Read my blog.

I tried to be more open, step out a little, talk to others but somehow i am happy within my comfort zone. Though i thirst to see more of the outside world, i really think i don't know my world just as well yet.

I know after this trip, Alvin would drift further away from me. I continue my life, work, looking forward to COP, Helmi's play. Nothing stays. Everything revolve. I wished it would but it doesn't. I'm still a stubborn shit. Will be as i never found someone or something to ever make me listen yet.

Patheticism, or maybe failure to take note. I wonder how I would react to the letter i wrote to myself in 6 months time. And i still feel that i tried hard yet it's still not good enough. What can i say, people hate me easily. Very easily. Fuck, sometimes i wonder what sets my friends apart from the cruel world?

And my faith, god knows i am lazy thus i got to prove him wrong. So where should i start? Let me think, i should start with me paying more attention to myself and taking note of what are really important in life, religion, values,and deeds. Never too late for changes. Just a question if I have enough courage and initiative to do so.

Ponder.