Day 10

( I dug holes, do things i never did before and I can do a Man's Job. :P)

Ai Chin read and share something, about the rules of being human where we have to look, listen and trust. Apart from that, i have forgotten.

For myself, i look, i listened but i seems to not trust.

And why do we always say; I am only human when we make mistakes, looking, listening at the flaws.

And we often take for granted every good thing that happen to us. Why?

I do not know. I am only human.

~I wish to differ from the likes or I would not lead my own life.

Day 10 - The night

(That's me and Aisyah's Vibrating Panda :P)

Dear Self,

Counting down to the few days that i am left with here and still i do not know what i want or really want or time may be the restraining factor.

Clueless as always, and maybe a lot more soul searching or a truck load of shit so that i can finally tell myself what i wanted and definitely work towards it. Super sianz.

Ben is beside me, Jason has been a great bestie. I need zen. Green Tea ice cream, where are you? Emotionally drained. Fuck, sometimes i wished things could go our way. Are there any possibilities of finding happiness by ourselves? Because satisfaction is never enough. I do not know how long I'm going to not have faith in everything?

I got issues with trust. Ponder. And i need to believe.And i love Ben's way of thinking, his perceptions and thoughts.